until it so desires...

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything on here. For a while there I think I was losing sight of my whole purpose of starting this blog, So I’m kind of reinventing it. Same name, same point basically. It’s still centered around purity, and putting my relationship with God first before anything else. But I’m going to do my best to make it completely about that. I think in the time that I started this blog until now I’ve had a lot of growing up to do… and I’ve struggled more than ever- but God keeps bringing me through- and completely out of those situations. I’ve been wanting to just sit down and write about it all week long but I just haven’t gotten the chance to. Even now I don’t really have time to say everything I need to. But God changed my life- again this past weekend.

I was convicted.

I knew there were things in my life I was truly struggling with. Things I never thought would be something I struggled with. And this past Sunday it was perfectly clear. As I was on stage preparing to help lead the congregation into worship- I felt like there was no way God could possibly move through me- I wasn’t worthy to have him work through me like that. I was ashamed, It felt hypocritical standing up there… singing these songs to Him when I had done what I had, and thought the thoughts that I had, just days before. Our wonderful worship pastor, Trevor, had just a short few words to say that morning before the service started. And it seemed to come out of nowhere, it wasn’t someting we had been talking about at the time, but he read this scripture- ”Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus” - Romans 8:1 

I almost cried right there. I know God was speaking to me through that. I knew there were changes I needed to make in my life. I made a conscious decision that moment to make those changes. God has done so so many awesome, amazing things in my life, but what happened this day is at the top of the list right now. It was that realization that Christ forgives, he loves, he gives endless chances, and he will convict you of your wrong, he will give consequences so you will learn from it, but God the father does not condemn his children. He loves us, Oh how he loves us.

And that was just the beginning of the day! I made that decision in my heart, but I was still feeling some guilt as we began to lead worship… But let me tell you, I have never experienced God’s presence so strong as I did that day. I cried through both services- just from the overwheming power of My God! He saves, he delivers, he redeems! Over and over again!

How great are you God.